Written by Hands Like Houses & Dream On Dreamer
Mixed & Mastered by Callan Orr (Avalanche Studios)
Video shot, directed and edited by Sam Koster
Recorded at The Vault CanberraThis song is about admitting how often we manipulate ourselves just to get through the day. Bend the truth, numb the doubt, and call it strength so we don’t have to face how empty things can feel. We build a life that looks held together, then act surprised when it still feels bare inside. The dread in this song isn’t dramatic, it’s familiar, routine, something we learn to live with. Saying out loud that everything is already hard enough, and pretending otherwise is part of what’s been breaking us.Lyrics:Manipulate myself, I dig a hole to hell
Articulate my world, A leap of faith is all I have
I built my home with care, I act surprised when its so bareI’m talking to myself, Am I scared?I’m feeling dead, inside my bonesthis kind of dread, is everything I know.Everything I know is hard to love
Everything has turned to dustI medicate my doubt, still feel it bleeding out
I decorate the truth, till it feels safe to touch I hold the cracks with shaking hands, still act surprised when I can’t stand
I’m talking to myself