How come being in love with love is better than being in love with a real person?I spent so much time trying to figure out why watching yaoi makes me more happy than being in a love relationship myself .I am a veteran of relationships. The loads of bitterness the moment a relationship ends... I don't want to go through it yet another time. What a mess, so much time wasted. Let's face it: some people just can't be with anybody, I am one of them.No, I am not unhappy with my past experiences. In fact, I appreciate I went through all this stuff. So many people, so many countries, practically all races...like..the whole world. Haha...and all that just to realise that the relationships are not so
My brain has become my enemy. Like a parasitic fungus, it took me over and makes me do things necessary for it to feed on me, untill we both are dead. I can't love any more, I can't befriend anybody any more, I am dwelling in my thoughts and have time for nobody. Yaoi has become a safe heaven but even this drug is not enough. It does not lit any flame in me, maybe for the moment I watch it, but then all is gone. The last and the only thing that I can do is learning mandarin. I'm spending hours and hours on learning, writing, memorising. I can understand more and more but it still does not make me talk to the people or search for any contact. I have recently been in a theater to see Hamlet. W
Dear sisters fujoshis, I don't have good news for you. There is no way out from here. Yaoi Gods will never let you go, they will feed you sweetness till the end of your life.But there is even worse thing you need to know. Yaoi leads you to this place, where you won't need any type of relationship at all. So hurry up, get your bf or husband, have kids. Very soon you will not need these things any more, you will be single af and you wil celebrate your singleness till the end of happy yaoi world.Hugzz to you all.